i often immerse myself in music, it blocks out everything around me like a portal taking me somewhere far away. i don't leave my room very often, because of this i am often called antisocial by my friends but i don't mind, I prefer being alone, it gives me time to think (although i have been told not to do that too often..) i like to sketch and paint, it too takes me away from this dull reality.
i know it probably sounds stupid but i feel like i was not supposed to be born human.. i have this uncontrollable urge to fly somewhere high up in the sky. and the fact that i am a mistake makes me favor this idea even more.
i have lost a lot of loved ones and have grown tired of this so called life of mine, i went through the unimaginably sad stage of my depression and am now feeling ever so numb, the only thing keeping me here at the moment is the thought of my mother being completely alone in this horrible world.
i like the thought that the people that self harm are really angels that were sent down to earth to experience a human life but because their souls aren't completely compatible with the human body they get sad and try to escape out of their flesh.
well that was great.... um.. Ohh..>_< my name is Chantelle by the way. ☾☸☯☸☽